the lost carebear

and I like it....a lot.

Ok, so, Human Biology test tomorrow.........

-_-

*le sigh!*

Well...
I started back to school, and it is / is going to be a great semester.
The baby is doing really well.
I'm terrified about the GRE....
and even more terrified about grad school itself.
We're going to Michigan next weekend for Oktoberfest, woo hoo!!!!
And that's about it.
*_-

So I have a three week summer this year,
because of having to take summer classes.
Oh well, it'll be worth it when I graduate.
So I've been living it up sitting outside,
and making / altering clothes...
Chris got me a diamond engagement ring
for mothers day.  I always told him I didn't
want one, then recently I realized I really do.
So I'm supposed to pick it up tomorrow.
I'm so excited!  Maybe he'll "officially" propose
when he gives it to me (he asked me to marry
him while I was driving :)  )
In any case he's such a sweety!

We bought the baby a beta fish for
Christmas, his name was General George.
He has been the best fish, active, and
has grown quite a bit since we got him.
This morning we found him dead.
He will have a "funeral at sea" this morning.
Happy Earth Day to everyone but george.

I feel like I'm drowning
being pulled beneath.
I feel like she wants
to hold me under.
...and he's too
tired to notice.
I feel like I'm losing
someone who's standing
right there.
What is wrong with her?
This is not a competition.
There is no winner,
no loser in life.
We make choices,
I made mine and
she made hers.
But when she says things
so belittling....
I wish he would step in
and notice.

New Season, new layout.

Spring break is officially here, thank god.
Classes are going well, but I need a break.
Everything is wonderful here, Chris, Elijah-Paul and I are all well.
Comment I want to know how all of you are!
I miss everyone, it's been so long since I've posted on here.
I've lost touch.

My god, last night was insane.
Ok I was on the phone with Megan and the baby was
walking around and all of a sudden I looked out the
window and the sight I saw was horrific. I haven't
seen that since we've lived out here. The sky was
this black with yellow tinge color and there was debris
flying all over the place, as well as the fact that the
rain was pretty much horizontal.
I couldn't believe my eyes....then weatherbug chirped at me,
I turned around and it said
Tornado Warning.
Now I know a lot of people out here, those two words don't
mean a whole lot, but where I grew up, in "tornado alley" you
see/hear those words and you better freakin hunker down.
I snatched up the baby, grabbed a flashlight and ran down to
the basement. When I got off the phone with Megan I called
Chris because he had gone to deposit $ and get gas in Mountain
Top. He said all the power had gone out over there half-way
through filling the tank so he was on his way home. He said
there was stuff flying around everywhere.
Well, laugh if you will but last night on the news it showed
that what had happened was more than likely a tornado and it
had touched down in Mountain Top, right where Chris was.
It pretty much demolished a Mr.Z's and some houses, as well
as uprooting a number of trees and blowing the roofs off of
a school gym and dugouts. Today there's a crew going around
to assess if it was in fact a tornado; all the weather
reporters claim it was because you can see the rotating winds
on the radar, the destruction it caused, and the fact that
everyone said it sounded like a train before it hit.
OOOOO that reminds me of a documentary that came out when I
was younger...It Sounded Like A Freight Train. Everyone
should see that movie, it's amazing. When I was growing
up my profession of choice, what I said I always wanted to
be, was an environmental scientist, chasing tornados.
When Twister came out it only furthered this fascination
and showed it was possible. Hehehe. I still would love
to do that someday...
Well I just thought I would share the excitement that was last night.

I wonder do I deserve such unconditional
love from so many individuals, especially
my little ray of happiness and smiles???